don't motivate me.

Honestly, this is the type of poster I hate. It reminds me of all the people who tell me to just be happy, as if it is so easy. They say to just stop over-thinking everything.Tell me how?? How do I stop thinking? If I try to, then I end up thinking about thinking! Seriously, I know this was supposed to help me, it was supposed to inspire me. It makes me feel like I'm retarded (excuse my language) for not being just normal and just turning it all off. People who are happy just tend to take it all for granted. 

Really, I would give half all of my smarts to be happy. I want to pop some Vicodin, maybe some Xanex. I don't know, I don't care. I just want to be normal. 
-T.